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I suffer being bored but no worries I bring it on myself. I refuse to be productive in other ways for the reason that I'm stubborn. I like to be different, all I have to do is be myself. I supose I'm sortof selfish in a way but I often think about others more than myself. That's what wears me down and one of the reasons I'm deprrssed but I'm not blaming this on them, I choose to care the way I do. I enjoy art, I think I should take it back up. I'd be very proud of myself if I got really good at it but i need to stop being lazy I guess. I enjoy music, it is always there for me when I'm down and need cheering up, fustrated and need to drown out the bad, or even when I'm happy I listen to music. I've been accused of using music to excape from reality. I'm thinking that's true but I'm older now and I think I can do more of focusing on other things and getting things done. I'm a procrastinator. I often wait till the last moment or something like that. I try to be honest and tell how I feel and what I think becuase aparently before now I was really bad at that.
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how about u? how have yeah been?