That is exactly how I feel right now.. Everything is falling apart and I honestly considder to go to psychiatric care.. I just don't know how, don't know how to do it.. I can't tell my mon, no way I'll make her go through all of it again, and I don't know how to get in there, I've never been there as adult, but I know that I need help, and it's a matter of days until this throws me down to hell again, if no miracle appears on the way.. Which I doubt..
However, I've just sent a message to my psychologist and I hope he has some idea of what I'm gonna do about this.. Hope replies soon..