I don't know how much of this shit I can stand. Everything gets worse every day.. 
I feel like I'm lying to everyone except those I talk to online, and that doesn't help me. To get the help I need, I'll have to tell the people around me more than I do now.. But it's hard, especially now when I'm an adult. I find that hard to understand, if I need help the day before i turn 18, do I not the day after because I've become an adult?

I won't even try to describe the feelings that I feel, I can't, it's just a big mess..