Greetings from a fellow traveler. I am 55 years old, a life long musician, have long hair and am part priestess. I have finally turned my back on the fears that kept me from being my full creative self. I would never have been bold enough to write you trapped in my male only persona but as a whole person male and female I have no trouble making friends with someone named kuntessa. I hope to have my pic on my site soon. I love having long black nails and erotic Goth make up. I dress in long black boots and my nipples are pierced. I have always had girlfriends but I was scared to explore. Then I discovered I liked bringing pleasure to whoever my partner was. The yin and yang is the way of nature. The freedom I found on stage had to be part of my life and Goth is a tribe I feel comfortable with. I gaurantee you if we met when I was in my male mode I would be way too embarassed to speak like this but girls are so much more comfortable with sex as an indulgence. Meanwhile, you are a mom, an adult and by all means an artist. My significant other is very straight and loves when i dress for her. she encouraged me to pierce my nose and enjoy how sensisitive my tits are. I hope you have someone to share that intimacy with. I wrote to you because we are modern primitives and the hope for the future lies with us, not the consumer hordes at the mall. I'll never forget the first time I was making out with this beautiful guitarist (I was made up too) andwhen I found out she was a boy it was so easy to bring her/him pleasure. It was a turn on for me. Then months later, there was a friend who was hurting emotionally and i brought him pleasure but it swasn't a turn on for me it was just something I could do for him and I started to understand there is power in being a female (I'm not a woman Just a guy who is aware of his feminine side). As a guy, I never thought of myself as good looking, there are almost no pictures of me. But after I turned a trick for $100 I forever knew I had the power in me. I never did that again because it drained the spiritual side of me. Which is why I'm on this Goth site instead of some porno site. Its not about horror but about possibilities. LOve the pic I'll henna my arms for mine. Chris
Our thoughts can control our emotions through external routes and internal routes. The external route to happiness requires skilled actions and cooperative forces in the external world. The internal route to happiness is much more direct. For those who believe their happiness totally depends on conditions in the external world, direct mental control over emotions seems "magical."
